Oh Shit ...! ;-o

Did you know, if your baby is not able to take a dump, there is a small mini missile looking capsule (very greasy), that needs to be inserted in its anus? Its called, rectal glycerin suppository (RGS). I (papa) was given the tough job yesterday, of shoving it in him while mom and the help coercively held him wide open. I am sorry Rishabh :-(.  It would hurt you bad i guess (as i don't recall anything shoved up to me ever). Yes, he did not take it comfortably. I tried 3-4 times but could not do it. Recall the irritation when you are trying to wear eye lenses and they just won't set and you can't even go rough, or the desperation when you are unable to dig that tiny snot out. I felt some thing like that while i tried to put in RSG. I know that he did not enjoy it either ... enjoy it? grosseee...!

This is how the RGS looks  - my my... comes in quite some shapes and sizes...

Then i went for my lunch. And may be in 5 minutes the capsule melted inside him and his favorite spot for taking a dump is not on the potty seat but in his diapers while he is dancing on my lap with unsettling postures. He has been doing it for quite a while now. But i can't forget his face while he was concentrating on launching it out. I am certain that the display of mixed emotions on your child's face is unique. He was crying, while he was trying and he was struggling to take those momentary sighs of relief at appropriate times. You know what i mean- haven't you desperately tried to take a dump before?

Thank you Amamma !!

Delayed posting - was intended for October 2014 or before.

Dadi and Dada have returned from the US few days ago.  In their absence of nearly four months, Rishabh's amamma stayed with us. Ammama is a loving, caring and very particular when it comes to certain things about handling a child- you can not breach those parameters ;-).  The days began with Amamma making Dosais for Rishabh and feeding him breakfast. If Amamma is around, be assured, Rishabh is fed in time, with the right things. I have noticed Rishu doing new things and responding appropriately. Amamma believes that you need to make consistent and conscious efforts with children Rishu's age to show them different things, expose them to varies experiences and converse with them like adults. That helps in the child's learning. Clearly, it is helping. Most credit goes to her for her undying efforts. Mom and Dad have been in office mostly.

Its very difficult for parents to entrust their child with anyone else. 24 hours you are worried of his whereabouts and wellbeing. But with Amamma in the house, not once i felt like that. She has been so at it with Rishabh. Very giving! Hats off and a big thank you. Although at times there has been a difference of opinion between us but that never prevented her from doing what is best for Rishu and we both respect that. We wish, Rishu gets more time with his Amamma the same way after she returns from the US.

SIL is going to deliver another baby. God!! Amamma is going to US to help. With such health situation, i don't know how MIL will manage. As much as i know her -her back and spondilisis are not going to back her down. Only one complaint, she should really take care of herself.

Thank you Amamma for being there...

Nearing 2

In a month, Rishu will be 2 years old. His energy levels are so high and is a very happy child. Thank you god! I need to be 10 years younger to match is pace. Like a chimp he runs here and there, gets on the table tops and at times hurts himself. He scratched my nose from inside so bad, it started bleeding internally. Since last couple of months, he is growing a bit violent. I think he needs to let out his energy and we need to find better ways. How to teach him not to hit? I mean, without showing a strict face and all? Yesterday, i got a bit annoyed and looked at him with somebody is gonna get hurt real bad look. I saw some scare in his eyes. I felt so bad and hated myself for it. But if i don't do this, how do i control him for his better? And then, he immediately avoids making eye contact and then slowly looks at me and says 'papa' in his tender tone. Pooffffff... there goes my effort for a toss! Its do difficult for me to be the stricter parent. Wifey, sorry but now the strategy is, that you are going to be the danger parent of the two of us. His speaking skills are developing slowly but he is learning fast.

Day after day, i can only fall more in love with him. I now understand, how difficult it is for parents to let go of their child. I will make the most until he gets on with his own life. I hope he does not go too far from us. 

Yesterday, i saw a movie in which the lead loses his wife and child who is almost the same age as Rishu. It made me mad. I couldn't take the idea of will this happen to me? I don't think i can survive without them. I have to do everything to protect them. Even if, i have to be the bad guy! One day when Rishu will be a father, i know he will understand!