Nearing 2

In a month, Rishu will be 2 years old. His energy levels are so high and is a very happy child. Thank you god! I need to be 10 years younger to match is pace. Like a chimp he runs here and there, gets on the table tops and at times hurts himself. He scratched my nose from inside so bad, it started bleeding internally. Since last couple of months, he is growing a bit violent. I think he needs to let out his energy and we need to find better ways. How to teach him not to hit? I mean, without showing a strict face and all? Yesterday, i got a bit annoyed and looked at him with somebody is gonna get hurt real bad look. I saw some scare in his eyes. I felt so bad and hated myself for it. But if i don't do this, how do i control him for his better? And then, he immediately avoids making eye contact and then slowly looks at me and says 'papa' in his tender tone. Pooffffff... there goes my effort for a toss! Its do difficult for me to be the stricter parent. Wifey, sorry but now the strategy is, that you are going to be the danger parent of the two of us. His speaking skills are developing slowly but he is learning fast.

Day after day, i can only fall more in love with him. I now understand, how difficult it is for parents to let go of their child. I will make the most until he gets on with his own life. I hope he does not go too far from us. 

Yesterday, i saw a movie in which the lead loses his wife and child who is almost the same age as Rishu. It made me mad. I couldn't take the idea of will this happen to me? I don't think i can survive without them. I have to do everything to protect them. Even if, i have to be the bad guy! One day when Rishu will be a father, i know he will understand!