Friday, 22 May 2015

Resumed office

Was on leave for a couple of months. Resumed office 4 days ago. Had a great time in your company Rishu. I hope the time that we spent together, will set a deep bond in your subconscious for papa. I loved every bit of it.  Today when i got ready and came out of the room, you did not know that i was still in the house. You were very seriously flipping the pages of your book. I thought you have already grown up. :-)

I love you

Papa

Sunday, 17 May 2015

Piku turns pukie!!

If its because of God, then thank you God for keeping me alive while my child is vulnerable and can't take care of himself. Don't take me away until Rishu is able to take care of himself both emotionally and physically. I know his mother would pray the same if not more.

We went for a movie today evening - 'Piku!' Decided to take Rishu along and carried his milk bottles. Fed him one on the way to the theater and let him savor some popcorns and corn- although we consider it a sin to feed him such junk. But this was one off case we let it slip and for the sake of our entertainment. Then in the middle of the movie- we gave him his second bottle while he was getting difficult to manage (already, Papa and Rishu had spent the first half outside the hall as Rishu preferred that. Love u cutie). May be after that he was playing with the water bottle and suddenly the corn or water choked his throat while he was one my lap. And there, he puked. Immediately, i picked him up and rushed him out as he continued choking and puking (once earlier also you choked and puked like this while you had bitten and swallowed a part of a small plastic spoon- some other day). Plus, the darkness in the hall must have been intimidating for my boy.  While leaving papa asked mumma to stay put as papa could have handled it. We were out of the hall and started rushing towards the men's room while both were drenched in puke. It was so terrifying to see, Rishu those 2-3 minutes. First he was scared of what was happening to him. Secondly he was unable to understand the situation and obviously, maintain his own calm. He was not able to stand that well on the washing platform. Mumma had joined us already a little earlier before we made it to the wash room.

Rishu kept wanting to be picked, i think by me. A breeze of happiness in my mind while still both maa and papa were focusing on cleaning him and changing him. "My kid wanted me! Me?!"

By the time we cleaned up Rishu, he had calmed down. Yes i think, he was a bit shaken by the whole episode. I looked at his mom, and she was still in a state of shock. Its amazing how mom's can be so strong for their children's wellbeing and at the same time can't see them in pain. Thankfully, mumma was able to quickly gain her santiy back. But i could see that she was feeling guilty that she let him eat all those things and did not care for him just for the sake of her entertainment. Rishu, it was not the case. Your mom has been having tough days since quite long. But its no use explaining her that she should not blame herself. Mother after all!

Well, we decided to leave the movie and head home. Past a few minutes of driving, you became so calm in your mother's arm. You kind of fell asleep. I am blessed to have seen all that. How in a mother's lap, her child feels so safe and gets all his peace and how knowing that her baby is alright, relieve all her stress instantly and lets the mother finally breathe! I wish, even dads were blessed to feel that connection with their children.

How I wish Rishu, this could have remained a part of your conscious memory. That would have been God's best gift to you after your mother.

Tuesday, 12 May 2015

Happy Birthday (posted on May 13th - photos posted later).

Its been long since i have posted. I am sorry Rishabh. I have no excuse. It was your 2nd birthday and we all celebrated. At first we thought we will hire a place and do something bigger than the last time. But, both your mom and i agreed that we would like to host it in the rented apartment - no matter how small it was. We celebrated your birthday on sunday (29th) as it would be easier for people to attend. But the main intention was to be with you the whole day.

We called a couple of kids from the society and a couple who are close friends. We got some stuff from outside and made some stuff. We had some nice South Indian meal, Pizzas, thandai, and of course the cake. Your mom, put placards on the dressing table which was basically the small almirah tops in which you toys and clothes are kept. Tell you what, i liked your mom's idea, it kind of made the serving look so pretty - it was simple but so pretty to me. You received so many many presents. You bhua, phupha ji and deeds sent you so many big gifts. They sent you an electronic guitar, finger puppets, soft toys and i think music laptop. She also sent you some animals. Mom and dad gave you bowling set, dada and dadi gave you a cricket bat, ball and stumps. Your thatha and amamma also gave you something but i am not aware what.

Do you know what was the best thing for papa on that day. You kissed him during the celebrations, not once but many times while papa was holding you and you hugged him so well. The best give i could ever receive.

And yes, do you know, papa and mummy planned out a whole Rishabh birthday week. We took you to Juhu beach one morning- (27th morning) (only the three of us). Cant quite recollect what was there for the evening. I will check with mom.

The next day we went to Taraporewala Acquarium. But there was such huge queue and it was so hot, we had to decide otherwise. So we took you on a ride and then we came back home. In the evening, as planned, your mom taking you to spend time with your Ammama and Thatha at their residence.

The next day afternoon, we took you to a place in Lower Parel which is called- "Milk". Its a place where kids play in a huge space with so many stuffs around. You have a fetish for cars. You found one and did not at all want to come out of it. Mummy and papa took turns to drive you with their push.  The same evening, we took you to Marine Drive for a horse bagghi ride followed by Rustam ice-cream and church gate. That was on your mom's list for so long. You were amused and you kept observing things from the horse back.

Rishu, the best gift that God has given us till date is you and your happiness.

Love you baccha

Papa