If its because of God, then thank you God for keeping me alive while my child is vulnerable and can't take care of himself. Don't take me away until Rishu is able to take care of himself both emotionally and physically. I know his mother would pray the same if not more.
We went for a movie today evening - 'Piku!' Decided to take Rishu along and carried his milk bottles. Fed him one on the way to the theater and let him savor some popcorns and corn- although we consider it a sin to feed him such junk. But this was one off case we let it slip and for the sake of our entertainment. Then in the middle of the movie- we gave him his second bottle while he was getting difficult to manage (already, Papa and Rishu had spent the first half outside the hall as Rishu preferred that. Love u cutie). May be after that he was playing with the water bottle and suddenly the corn or water choked his throat while he was one my lap. And there, he puked. Immediately, i picked him up and rushed him out as he continued choking and puking (once earlier also you choked and puked like this while you had bitten and swallowed a part of a small plastic spoon- some other day). Plus, the darkness in the hall must have been intimidating for my boy. While leaving papa asked mumma to stay put as papa could have handled it. We were out of the hall and started rushing towards the men's room while both were drenched in puke. It was so terrifying to see, Rishu those 2-3 minutes. First he was scared of what was happening to him. Secondly he was unable to understand the situation and obviously, maintain his own calm. He was not able to stand that well on the washing platform. Mumma had joined us already a little earlier before we made it to the wash room.
Rishu kept wanting to be picked, i think by me. A breeze of happiness in my mind while still both maa and papa were focusing on cleaning him and changing him. "My kid wanted me! Me?!"
By the time we cleaned up Rishu, he had calmed down. Yes i think, he was a bit shaken by the whole episode. I looked at his mom, and she was still in a state of shock. Its amazing how mom's can be so strong for their children's wellbeing and at the same time can't see them in pain. Thankfully, mumma was able to quickly gain her santiy back. But i could see that she was feeling guilty that she let him eat all those things and did not care for him just for the sake of her entertainment. Rishu, it was not the case. Your mom has been having tough days since quite long. But its no use explaining her that she should not blame herself. Mother after all!
Well, we decided to leave the movie and head home. Past a few minutes of driving, you became so calm in your mother's arm. You kind of fell asleep. I am blessed to have seen all that. How in a mother's lap, her child feels so safe and gets all his peace and how knowing that her baby is alright, relieve all her stress instantly and lets the mother finally breathe! I wish, even dads were blessed to feel that connection with their children.
How I wish Rishu, this could have remained a part of your conscious memory. That would have been God's best gift to you after your mother.
We went for a movie today evening - 'Piku!' Decided to take Rishu along and carried his milk bottles. Fed him one on the way to the theater and let him savor some popcorns and corn- although we consider it a sin to feed him such junk. But this was one off case we let it slip and for the sake of our entertainment. Then in the middle of the movie- we gave him his second bottle while he was getting difficult to manage (already, Papa and Rishu had spent the first half outside the hall as Rishu preferred that. Love u cutie). May be after that he was playing with the water bottle and suddenly the corn or water choked his throat while he was one my lap. And there, he puked. Immediately, i picked him up and rushed him out as he continued choking and puking (once earlier also you choked and puked like this while you had bitten and swallowed a part of a small plastic spoon- some other day). Plus, the darkness in the hall must have been intimidating for my boy. While leaving papa asked mumma to stay put as papa could have handled it. We were out of the hall and started rushing towards the men's room while both were drenched in puke. It was so terrifying to see, Rishu those 2-3 minutes. First he was scared of what was happening to him. Secondly he was unable to understand the situation and obviously, maintain his own calm. He was not able to stand that well on the washing platform. Mumma had joined us already a little earlier before we made it to the wash room.
Rishu kept wanting to be picked, i think by me. A breeze of happiness in my mind while still both maa and papa were focusing on cleaning him and changing him. "My kid wanted me! Me?!"
By the time we cleaned up Rishu, he had calmed down. Yes i think, he was a bit shaken by the whole episode. I looked at his mom, and she was still in a state of shock. Its amazing how mom's can be so strong for their children's wellbeing and at the same time can't see them in pain. Thankfully, mumma was able to quickly gain her santiy back. But i could see that she was feeling guilty that she let him eat all those things and did not care for him just for the sake of her entertainment. Rishu, it was not the case. Your mom has been having tough days since quite long. But its no use explaining her that she should not blame herself. Mother after all!
Well, we decided to leave the movie and head home. Past a few minutes of driving, you became so calm in your mother's arm. You kind of fell asleep. I am blessed to have seen all that. How in a mother's lap, her child feels so safe and gets all his peace and how knowing that her baby is alright, relieve all her stress instantly and lets the mother finally breathe! I wish, even dads were blessed to feel that connection with their children.
How I wish Rishu, this could have remained a part of your conscious memory. That would have been God's best gift to you after your mother.
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