Nearing 2

In a month, Rishu will be 2 years old. His energy levels are so high and is a very happy child. Thank you god! I need to be 10 years younger to match is pace. Like a chimp he runs here and there, gets on the table tops and at times hurts himself. He scratched my nose from inside so bad, it started bleeding internally. Since last couple of months, he is growing a bit violent. I think he needs to let out his energy and we need to find better ways. How to teach him not to hit? I mean, without showing a strict face and all? Yesterday, i got a bit annoyed and looked at him with somebody is gonna get hurt real bad look. I saw some scare in his eyes. I felt so bad and hated myself for it. But if i don't do this, how do i control him for his better? And then, he immediately avoids making eye contact and then slowly looks at me and says 'papa' in his tender tone. Pooffffff... there goes my effort for a toss! Its do difficult for me to be the stricter parent. Wifey, sorry but now the strategy is, that you are going to be the danger parent of the two of us. His speaking skills are developing slowly but he is learning fast.

Day after day, i can only fall more in love with him. I now understand, how difficult it is for parents to let go of their child. I will make the most until he gets on with his own life. I hope he does not go too far from us. 

Yesterday, i saw a movie in which the lead loses his wife and child who is almost the same age as Rishu. It made me mad. I couldn't take the idea of will this happen to me? I don't think i can survive without them. I have to do everything to protect them. Even if, i have to be the bad guy! One day when Rishu will be a father, i know he will understand! 

Quickly he learns

He is learning everything so quickly these days. I am nervous ! Tomorrow is a small orientation in the play school. He will start his PLAY SCHOOL so soon. 

He has really grown up. Miss him all day. Seriously, i really can kill for him. 

Maid or honour

I used to despise couples who would come to malls with their babies carried by maids. How can you make a baby but not take its entire responsibility? Now that i have a child too, i think i have a right to speak on this issue. The truth is, the more your child grows the more it becomes difficult for you to manage it. It's not easy. Carry your one year old for half an hour, and you will clearly see the perspective of those couples. A help in such case seems just to me.  So long as you are not running away from taking responsibility of your child, so long as the help is - just for help, I think it is alright. But I admit, I am still uncomfortable about somebody else holding up my child or hugging him. So when I am around, I make sure its papa and laddoo. Mommy and daddy have hard working hours and demanding jobs. But Rishu.. You keep us going! Love u 😘

New things !!

A week ago, we attended a pooja at a relative's place in Chembur. Rishabh was dressed in a denim trouser for the first time with a light blue full sleeve shirt tugged out- a combination and a manner I have always loved dress in..God! i said to myself.. he is growing up! Anyways, this post is not about his growing up.

Rishu was mostly outside the ceremony room, but was able to see whats happening inside. In the end, all the attendees (family) were to assemble next to the Vadiyaars (religious priests who are well versed with the religious procedures and who guide ignorant people like us who get the satisfaction merely from the fact that they saw through the entire process and did their part), and pay respects to  God who was enshrined in the room through the verses of the Vadiyaars. The room was small so all had to stand in semi-circular arrangement. MIL was carrying Rishu. As if he understood that something was going on which required him to stay calm for some time. He was trying to evaluate what was happening and paying attention. The positive vibes in the room were blessing him. I was glad inside and thanked God for getting him to experience such a thing with his family. It feels so nice to see him experiencing new things and see him learning ! 

... Papa

I remember him...

Went for his chicken pox vaccination to Jaslok day before yesterday. This is the pediatrician we have been visiting since the begining. People said he was good and we followed.. Frankly i dont like this doctor. Why cant you be pally with kids when they come to see you man? Is everything alright that even though you are a children's doctor you cant smile with them? I am never bringing my child back to you again. Plus, you make us wait for 3 hours despite appointment. This is crap!

Anyway, like me my baby also does not like this one. Rishu can hardly speak but the moment he saw this doctor, he started crying and pushed hard to hide inside the both of us. He remembers him.. the devil from the last visit who always hurts me with injections😡. 

The amount he cried and the way the doctor injected the siringe.. so much he cried😩. No worries beta.. this for your good. You are a brave child.. You can take it. 

Papa 

Always beautiful!!

He is beautiful, even when he has a running nose or he is messed up in his own spit or he is in fever or all in the same time. He is teething again. For the past 2 days, he is very irritative and is running fever. I pour in my whole energy in distracting him. Before i could pat my back on my resplendent success, off he goes. What do you want? huh! You want me to carry you or you want me to put you down? Now why are you crying again - look look.. thats birrrr... outside.

Its ok my son... you can cry.. Papa is right with you !! 

Missing him each day

Have not got enough time with him the last couple of days. I hate it when it happens. Each day he has a new trick under his hat and god i die to see it. ...

Love you Rishabh .. Papa